on the range
i moved to the city in 1999. since then, i have accumulated quite a bit of stuff. over the last few months i’ve been selling, giving, and throwing it all away, and there is still lots of it all around me.
we have to be out of here on the 31st. that is new years eve. and then where to after that? back here to take some classes on mind training and how buddhists say the world works.
pretty much any buddhist class you take is going to be about karma and emptiness. and if it’s not that, it’s about how to help other people better, and the only reason to do that is because of karma and emptiness.
what do i mean emptiness? if i had to put it in a short definition i would say that it is the fact that all things are devoid of a self nature, meaning all things derive meaning and definition interdependently from the things around it, including, and perhaps most importantly, the consciousness labeling it. some might say that this is a very poor definition, and there are many nuances and different levels of understanding of emptiness.
maybe i’ll tell you all about it when i have perceived emptiness directly. for now, i’m quite the novice, so please draw no conclusions about buddhism based on my simple opinions.
anyhoo, i’m getting rid of a lot of shit, and i’m setting of for new adventures in the desert. wish us luck, we are trying to buy some land out there.
i’m gonna be a homesteader…
nostalgia, it ain’t what it used to be…
there are two kinds of people in the world:
people who think there are two kinds of people in the world,
and people who don’t.
cut your losses
o.k., i am a sucker. i took the truck to my mechanic, and he said it was junk. he said, that car should not have left the lot and that it was unsafe to be on the road. he said, if it’s all gold on the outside, it doesn’t mean it’s not lead on the inside.
the truck looked and drove great, but once it was up on the lift, it was obviously rotted from the ground up. rust was eating away at it. too bad. it still drove great, but it will be driving great and falling apart.
i took it back, and surprisingly, they took it back, less 500 bucks for paperwork. a little steep if you ask me. if you ask someone else, they might say, i should have looked for these problems before i bought the damn thing.
live ya learn.
anybody got a truck for me?
oh, my mechanic also said that he would sell me my old jeep back. wadya think a that one?
2000 bucks, and the oil leak fixed and a brand new radiator.
check engine
o.k. now what’s up with you?
here is what’s up with me. after a short stint in california for about a year, give or take, i moved back to new york. i came here with a job working for disney on broadway. that was about two years ago. the show closed, and now i’m on unemployment. that freedom allowed me to go to
for a full term. they have three terms a year, each lasting about 5 weeks. i guess you could call them trimesters.
i’m also moving out of our rented brownstone in brooklyn. why? well the whole building has just been sold. we have until the end of december to vacate. this all builds up to the big opportunity to move to the arizonian desert and cultivate a solid meditation practice.
i just bought a truck. we hope to buy a piece of property in bowie, az. i will need a truck. i have a truck. i feel like a real man. this real man was driving his brand new used truck home from jersey today and the check engine light lit up.
i am a sucker.
to the mechanic tomorrow.